I discovered something about the music scene in this town: no awesome chick rock bands. Not pop, not folk, not country (god no please no country) but actual old-school Runaways cross with Tool orgy and Amanda Palmer getting in on the action girl rock band. High demands from a highly ambitious female. And I'm going to make this happen. I went to a local film premiere for "BURST THEORY" <---(click here) and met up with an old film friend specifically got to talking about an all girl rock band, and here we were, three of us gabbing a million miles an hour about this. The more we talked, the more exciting and fast our brains lit up, and from the inspiration we all fed off each other, it is quite possible I believe, to get this ball rolling in the next six months. Only problem is that I have to find a bassist, two guitarists, and a keyboardist. The chick that was involved in the conversation plays the drums. Never really wanted to have even one other female in my band, I have always been one with the guys. Not one for catty prissy chicks. NOT ALL CHICKS ARE, only most of them. We were born to dream big, to see how big we could turn dreams into our reality. It's how far are we willing to go to get what we want out of life. And I want this. All-girls? With the lyrics I'm writing at the moment, it would be more comfortable having all girls instead of having guys look at me all shifty-eyed by how *ahem* forward my music will be. I'm not a feminist, I'm just a bitter biddy. I had a wonderful guitarist in Detroit, but sadly I don't think he wants to continue working now that I am currently not in Detroit and currently no longer in a relationship with him. Sigh. Sad face. Alas, the show must go on, somehow.
QUESTION: What is the best way to look for musicians in your area? Unfortunately social media is technology-based nowadays. Unlike the golden rock age, people actually WENT to bars and coffeeshops to AUDITION new players for their band. Now, all you have to do is click on they're webpage or soundcloud, or bandcamp, or whatever. My issue with that is it's completely impersonal. How can you connect and mesh with someone on the internet? I need to shake an actual hand, see how they perform on the spot, and how well we click. How the hell do people do this? Better question, how the hell do people DATE online? That's a question I can't fathom the answer to.
I have a hard time hanging out with people on a one-on-one basis. This may be a development of a social anxiety problem that has been festering for more than a year... and just gets worse as time goes by. Unlike a lot of folks, I actually enjoy going out to a bar, to have a couple beers, and write in my journal... people observe. The thought of hanging out at someone's house with just them, makes me fidget. And decline the invitation. It's not that I don't trust them, I just don't trust them. What is this about? i used to be a social butterfly, but then I discovered my humility and being a selfless person. I don't want the social limelight. I want to be left alone to my journal. Maybe if I allow myself to open back up to people, I'd be a butterfly again. Winter closes people. It shuts them up, it shuts them in.
AND IN THE NEWS: Officially on 4 working projects for the first time in a couple years, thank you Universe. It's been a labor of sitting quiet since the tax incentive left Michigan. We've all been stuck trying to figure out what the fuck to do with ourselves. I got so desperate for creativity I'd cry all day as I tried to sketch, tried to do some arts and crafts to fill the empty void. It is very true we reap what we sew: I admit I wasn't looking hard enough before, and definitely learned my lesson. So boys and girls, do yourself a favor... quit complaining about how nothing is happening in your life, and go out and fuckin do something to make it happen. No one can work for you, no one is going to hand you success on a silver platter (unless you are Jennifer Lawrance) and no one is going to discover you (unless you are Paris Hilton) UNLESS YOU GET THE FUCK OUT THERE.
PS-- Feel free to comment or send me a note, I love it when people want to pick my brain apart cuz I love doing it to them.