A lot of wonderful karma has come back, or so it feels. I got hit with so much good shit, that I started to cry. Tears of joy, life is never this great without dire consequences. ... or, could it be the time of positive change coming round after months of hard work healing and growing? I'll take the latter. I refuse to believe one cannot have too much of a good thing when one knows what it's like to wish for it everyday. So, let me take a moment of silence for Miss Fortune smiling down.
K, if I don't stop here I never will, so moving on!
Dear Michigan, let's keep the big budget movies coming in for filming in our awesome state! That's all I can say for now, but will let you in on this when it happens. =p
Aren't you curious.....
I do believe in reaping what I sew. It took some curveball truths from my best friend for me to realize a few lingering behaviors that linger in laziness, are still about. I used to never be satisfied with life, always jumping from one party situation to the next. Now, I can relish in the moment of accomplishing things, big or small. They all mean something, and I was in the way of my own happiness in perceiving life, what is good, and what can be moved on. Life is good, I am the healthiest I've ever been in mind and body, working and motivated to see how far I can go in achieving dreams. Cuz, if I got to meet Eddie, that dream coming true ( I mean c'mon what are the odds!) I CAN do anything... mwahahahahaaaa!
I'd love to do anything, so being good at living in this reality will only help in dream dimensions. *sip*
Yes, I know it's early. But I only sleep about 6 hours now, awake and eager to start the day. What the fuck? Haha, I know right?
SO! In conclusion ladies and jellyspoons... Treasure each goal you accomplish big or small, know that you deserve to be happy. If you're like me, it's hard to live by this concept that I actually deserve happiness, it's the lack of self-compassion that I am working on which, yes believe me on this, is getting much better everyday.
You can do it too! Shit happens, more shit happens and sometimes life makes you eat some to appreciate real good stuff happening. Just take a shot of whiskey and soldier on. It's not about what you went through, but HOW you went through it.
Ok, I gotta go work out.
Oh yeah, rehearsal is going great! Involved in an indie crime drama shooting in Grand Rapids, MI. Also have had auditions and bookings coming through for this summer. BEST NEWS: A fantastic local photographer and film friend will be taking actual headshots of me! Seriously I haven't had real headshots in years. Ha.
Ok I'm really gunna go now and I'm gunna leave you with THIS AWESOME PHOTO