On a dirtier note, had a fantastic event my work hosted downtown at this gritty (but famous) underground goth night club where there were wonderful performances by Burlesque dancers, fire eaters, ritual dancers, DJs to get our groove on to, dungeon play to get spanked or flogged, whichever you choose, and people to bondage you and string you up. Yes, just because you may not like it doesn't mean other people don't. Working at this store has helped me open up in a lot of different ways, and how I look at myself. My confidence has increased, I am able to talk to people about sensitive/personal topics, and it helps me try and find new things to be passionate about, like fashion, and .... sex toys.... and.... just being myself without boundaries or insecurities. That's important -- our culture makes people think they have to be plastic; follow a set standard like we're programmed, not miraculously made. If everyone let go of their insecurities, what they think they're expected to do, they would be happier. Because they would be living their lives for them. On a personal level -- not saying fuck your job and create anarchy because that's how you feel inside -- there is a balance in society because we're all connected -- and we honor each other by doing what we know is right, while honoring ourselves by being who we were meant to be. So, this party was a last minute idea and I went with a friend/designer and wore one of his pieces. Lots of great exposure for both of us, and his Etsy store "Mourn The Living" has gained some popularity since :) I got tons of photos out of it from wonderful photographers eager to snap an op, and I love the camera, so it was fun for all.
"An examination of your conscious thoughts will tell you much about the state of your inner mind, your intentions and expectations, and will often lead you to a direct confrontation with challenges and problems. Your thoughts, studied, will let you see where you are going. They point clearly to the nature of physical events. What exists physically exists first in your thought and feeling. There is no other rule... You have the conscious mind for a good reason. You are not at the mercy of unconscious drives unless you conscious acquiesce to them. Your present feelings and expectations can always be used to check your progress. If you do not like your experience, then you much change the nature of your conscious thoughts and expectations. You must alter the kind of messages that you are sending through your thoughts to your own body, to friends and associates.
Each thought has a result, in your terms. The same kind of thought, habitually repeated, will seem to have a more or less permanent effect. If you like the effect then you seldom examine the thought. If you find yourself assailed by physical difficulties, however, you begin to wonder what is wrong. ... Sometimes you blame others, your own background, or a previous life -- if you accept reincarnation. You may hold God or the devil responsible, or you may simply say "That is life," and accept the negative experience as a necessary portion of your lot. You may finally come to a half-understanding of the nature of reality and wail, "I believe that I caused these ill effects, but I find myself unable to reverse them." If this is the case, then regardless of what you have told yourself thus far, you still do not believe that you are the creator of your own experience. As soon as you recognize this fact you can begin at once to alter those conditions that cause you dismay or dissatisfaction. ... No one forces you to think in any particular manner. In the past you may have learned to consider things pessimistically. You may believe that pessimism is more realistic than optimism. You may even suppose, and many do, that sorrow is ennobling, a sign of deep spiritualism, a mark of apartness, a necessary mental garb of saints and poets. Nothing could be further from the truth."
Did she just blow your mind? If you can relate or can argue this, by all means feel free to drop a line. I love conversing about this stuff.
I'll leave you with that. <3