Why can't we trust one another? In this day and age, we need support and strength from our friends, loved ones, rekindle important relationships, and together we can still feel alive and happy. We can't do this on our own. This world is fucked up, with very little hope of turning back to its glory days of flourishing society for humans. Why can't we at least give each other hope?
Why can't we feel alive, alone? These last couple weeks, I haven't gone out. I did get to film a couple projects. I seem to get stuck going in circles of what I want and where I want to be in life. Maybe I want to move too fast so I can only run or lay down. Walking is the hardest part -- walking in a healthy stride life gives you the rhythm and I can't follow it.
I get my hopes up too fast, and let down sooooo far deep in disappointment and depression. There must be a balance, a lesson I missed along the way of how to stay strong in my skin while healing begins. In the present, I must learn to be able to be alone, and live alone. Friends and relationships were so easy to have, and so easy to lose that I took for granted what I had, until they were all gone. Moved away. Broken up. Such a fool I was to think the people I so easily became friends with, would always be there. But they may be gone, but not lost. I still have hope, I don't want to give up what I still want, still want but can't get back. I still love the man I left in Detroit. I still feel awful for my mental instability driving friends away. It's a lot better than it was. A wound can heal but the scar will forever remain as the lesson learned for the future.
A lot of people are dying around me, a lot of familiar names and faces and musicians I used to listen to all the time, they're dying. My mom's best friend has a month to live. An ex-lover's friend passed away. It's happening to all of us. And it's too much to feel alone. Can we all just hug it out and try to be happy and supportive of one another?
Fuckin' hell. This is depressing.
Anyway. In tribute to GWAR, here is one of the best music videos ever made.
Then if that didn't make you smile and rock out... here's a little video closer to home. An early Thigh High Roots cover I did with amazing talented artists in Detroit.
Keep smiling, but please. Keep having hope in other people, let's prove to the aliens watching us we still have hope for humanity. <3
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